I dont want to think about school!

Hi, yesterday was having dinner at my relative's house. Dad and mom suddenly discussed about my education. Im really getting sick and tired of the whole shifting to ace thing. I dont want to get my hopes high, like i did last time. It seriously isnt nice to mislead people. The cost of my tuitions and going to ace for 1 year is almost about the same. So i dont know what are the chances of me shifting there. Neither do i know whether it is available for another student. So....... I'd better not think too much.

Met celynn at starbucks. Seen seowtoong and Shan shan after soooo long. Bought a drink, for once.. Im not really a big fan of starbucks because its so overrated and its so costly, but it wont hurt for once right? After that we went for a midnight movie at summit with our moms. Came back at 2am, slept at 3. Woke up, watched wish and switch. :)

1st day of cny.

My little cousin Derrick. *wonders why i dont have cute lala cousin boys.

So, this is how i dressed on the first day. Woke up early. Had lunch. Recieved red packets. My maid swept the floor today. Very very nice. I am so sleepy.

Wanna know something? The older you get the less red packets you recieve! Like seriously. If you were still a small 'adorable' little kid, wishing happy new year, oh man, adults will like give you redpackets. Sadly, when i wished some people i knew they just said it back to me, and thanks yous. And continue praising the little kid. Rejection much? -__- i hate kids. And they always stand infront of me, and usually, i dont look down, and one day i might probably trip over a kid. Lol im just kidding. Still. I know, kids are kids. But i still hate kids. And so, your argument is invalid. :)

Kinda pissed today because im having a boring typical dinner tonight, where i dont feel the cny vibes or anything. I could've gone to my mom's side of the family but im not allowed since its bad luck/disrespectful. Ugh so boring. I expected more. More cny vibessss. I hope you had a better day than i did!

Shopping!

From left, 1,2,3 brand new. 3 for Rm10 wdf. 

HEY GUYS! HEHEHE.

2 self declared holidays, since thursday and friday. I managed to get away from my horrible moral teacher and zhen sen told me she actually asked people where i am. Im too smart for her, so like a smart kid shall do, i skipped school! I went to sunway and summit today. Got the cutest ribboned hairband, 3 for rm10. Can you even believe it? I asked the salesgirl like 3 times. Diva's selling the same ones but at a much higher price! You can get them, same quality at summit.

Bought the cutest suede shoes today. I've never owned a pair. I tried on a few boots, but i didnt see any cute ones. Tomorrow dinner with mom's side, garndmother and aunties. I am so so so happy. I love family dinners! See that makeup palette? It was previously my mom's but she hardly used it and she gave it to me. Like finally, mother. Make up. Thank you. So i cleaned it up abit, and pasted a hellokitty sticker there because i LOVE hellokitty.

I think my dad does not want to go to the dvd shop anymore after he found out the guy there likes me. Damn it i need my hongkong shows. :(

SO I WISH YOU GUYS A HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR, BECAUSE I MIGHT NOT BE BLOGGING FOR THESE FEW DAYS. VISIT VISIT, GAMBLE, DRINK. AND TO THOSE NOT CELEBRATING, HAPPY HOLIDAYS! 

I wanna meet the one who makes it hard for me to breathe

Hello miaos! Just got back from school, bathed, webcam with Celynn right now. Last week, my mom found out i dyed my hair and she's really really mad. But i cant be bothered because i dont feel guilty at all, since i have an absolutely valid reason while her reason of not letting me do it, is because im vain. Isnt every girl vain?! Jeez.

So today i went to school, uh. Suddenly after recess, i found my seat taken by the new boy. So i went to sit with Sabrina. I guess people would think im pretty arrogant, but im just anti social. And i find guys who draw pictures of cars/transformers very weird.... To me, that is. Today was so-so. I'd rather sit alone though. Can someone please get out of the class? Im just kidding. Moral was fun until the teacher spoiled it all. Was having a nice chat with Zhen Sen and Weng Howe. And i never do my homework. Being the only girl who sat with the guys, the teacher walked by and saw i had not done a single thing. (AS USUAL) So, on Thursday, im supposed to hand in my work. I hope i can skip on Thursday. I am so very screwed indeed.

For PE lessons, hung out with Natalie, Nicole and Jolene, who is shifting to Jakarta and going to an international school! How lucky! I am so grateful i have Natalie. Isnt it enough that in class, i sit alone/with stranger boy? So eventhough i was wearing the usual uniform, i was forced to do the stupid exercise routine. Boo hoo hoo :(

Anyone wants to skype? :)

 I feel sorry for Celynn cause one of my friends has been pestering her about me. He just doesnt have the guts to ask me, himself. Honestly, i cant even understand what is he saying because its like mixed up languages. Even me, who doesnt know chinese that well, i can tell that the pinyin he texted me was wrong. I dont even know how Celynn knows. -__- 

BYE! 

Just pray to a god i dont believe in.

Juju, Aeisyah & Aina!

I miss my bestfriends so much! I hardly get to see Aeisyah anymore. I have to call Juju or i'll have no one to talk to but Celynn about school stuff. Damn it i miss juju.

Today i went to school, and got my english textbooks, im in the same group as danial, syafiq and hafidzy- which who is my neighbour. Oh my! So i talked to him for the first time in my life. And during pjk, as usual, being super barbie me (LOLJK) i was not wearing pjk clothes and kinda just stood there during the exercise. Being pissed under the hot sun. Was it even that hot, now i wonder? HEEHEHE.

Shannon, has just left me and went to 4 Delphi. And so, Danial sat with me today. Do you know how freaking complicating is addmaths. I admit its more interesting than modern maths but i couldnt even understand a single shit. Im like lost. I guess my brain isnt advanced enough. Hmm. Anyway, its pretty fun being the assistant monitor. I get more reasons to walk out of the class and do something. So im probably gonna skip tomorrow! Gonna play getamped now so goodbye!

Eriqa's transferring to 4 F. HI NEW BESTFRIEND

Lovey dovey dovey!

Miao! 

Im supposed to be gaming today. Half a week of school has just gone by, and its about 2 more weeks to Chinese New Year? I guess i am kind of excited. Today, i am also supposed to go to Mcd's and do the malay essay with my classmates, but as my classmates are all guys, and Shannon's not there, and jeez, why am i so anti social?! So anyway i'll be at home. Im stuck at the essay. Like seriously, what is there to write about? I cant really elaborate on anything, since its a career kind of essay. And i want to be a air hostess. I guess im screwed during the bm period tomorrow unless my brain starts working so i'll complete my essay before i sleep. Chances are not very likely. 

So today, i talked about moving out with my parents. Since Juju, Aina and Aeisyah are all planning to do so after sec 5. Im not quite sure if they'll let me, but knowing my mom, its obviously a no. She knows i'll go out  til like 3/4 am for sure. I've been longing to have a taste of freedom. And i can only do so at Celynn's. Still, i cant stay at her place forever. Seems like all my friends are planning to move out! I hope i wont be controlled. It really really sucks. 

T-ara's Lovey Dovey! :)

WAR.

Im a happy schooling girl. LOLJK IM NOT.

In SMK USJ 12 today, a war has started. Whatever you want to call it, protest? Riot? To summarize it, apparently, the parents voted on English to be taught. However the school, on the other hand, sent us malay textbooks, giving an excuse that the english textbooks are not sufficient enough. And so, begun the riot, Hannah Yeoh actually came to our school today. As for us science stream students, chemistry, physics, bio, maths, add maths textbooks are in malay. And the funny thing is, i heard you've got to bring both english and malay to school everyday during lessons. Which is a stupid thing to do, honestly, i'll just leave the malay textbooks at home. What's the point having the malay textbooks? Its like fucking gibberish, i dont even understand a single shit. My school is screwed.

When i play games with people in Singapore, their standard of English, is way more higher than us. Compared to them, a 15 year old kid here, cant speak proper english while a 12 year old singaporean can. You want to be successful? Learn your english kid. Harvard, Princeton universities. How are you ever going to get in there? I bet everyone wants to be successful in life, right?

Dwibahasa/Biligual. = I know why people in malaysia speak such horrible english over here. Because the teachers are teaching the students to do so. People text me, and some of them, mix their english with bm. I swear to god, its such a major turn off. 

Also, in the end, the school still wins anyway. All my life in school, for science and maths, the teachers have been teaching it in bilingual. 

Transfer!

Photos from the day me and celynn went to kl! 

So hi, finally the weekend is almost here! I've missed gaming so much. Its Pookie's birthday today. Im starting to get used to my class. What would i ever do without Shannon! Chemistry looks kinda hard. But im sure i'll know how to do it somehow. Im guessing i really should do my work. After all, being embarrassed in a new class isnt a very good impression you'd want to give, especially if you're the assistant monitor.

I heard a few people were going to transfer into 4F. Oh no! I love my class the way it is now! My history teacher is great. On another note, today i came home, bringing back the bm textbooks, and my parents were more pissed than i ever was. Now my dad is kinda like confused, if he should send me to another school, but i told him its no use. And of course i did suggest PTS. And he said how bout catholic high, and i was like HELL NO. Anywhere but usj4 and catholic high. I'll see how it goes, but im guessing they'll forget about it, and i'll just end up in usj 12.

Teachers who come into this class are like, "oh this is an ict class, no biology eh?" And i feel like bursting out HEY IM GONNA TAKE BIO. Then again, im just taking it cause i like science. What i want to be in the future, is totally unrelated. Singapore Airlines Stewardess. :D

Ugh, i guess my bm teacher recognizes me. Shannon's pretty shocked about all the rules she has. Gonna start gaming now! 

School.

So, school started and im in 4 finnix. Shannon's sitting beside me. I kinda feel like a dumb person, since im surrounded by all these smart people. And some people i know in pure science are already studying their arses off. How scarily competitive it is over there. Surprise surprise, im the assistant monitor. While Danial's the monitor. Its so funny cause im the most unreliable person ever! But i learnt a few things today, to get the file, class slip and stuff like that. Thank god, recess is free of form 3's.

So, my addmaths and modern maths teachers are giving us form 3 maths revision which mainly consists of linear and algebra. (definately not my favourite topics in math). Being me, i forgot everything after pmr. And my textbooks are in malay, which is kinda frustrating. Then i heard we're gonna get english textbooks too. Which is good news, but we'll have to bring both.

Are. You. Fucking. Kidding. Me?!

So anyway, im pretty much forever alone, if not for Shannon, and we're having moral classes with 4pentium which is coincidently zhensen's class! I get to have recess with celynn! And i can see juju, aina and aeisyah. I miss them so much! We laugh about nonscensical things, and now we're all seperated.. Tomorrow im supposed to hand in the homework for maths and i havent even done it, neither did i copy it. Oh well. Im excited for english essay writing though! Sounds super fun. More than 350 words? Sweetie, me and shannon write twice more than that! ;D

First day of 2012.

Today we went to summit. Bought some stuffs, shows to watch, ribbons. Tomorrow we are going to KL.  And im only going home on tuesday.

I seriously think im gonna end up forever alone. I hate too much things.

Just now we went swimming. And got called up by the guard for the most stupid reason ever.

Forever alone

So, today Celynn shopped for her cny clothes, and got a dress for seowtoong. I finally bought hair dye. I nearly wanted to get the liese dye, but according to Celynn, it completely spoils your hair. I am kind of excited. But im waiting for her to come back.

I saw many people i knew in sunway today. Bokang, huiping, huishin, dencan, celynn's classmate. Lots of school mates. Unfortunately, we didnt stay for the countdown. Instead, we went back to the rooftop of the condo. The fireworks were really pretty. Every new year still feels a little forever alone. This year's 1st hour was honestly, the worst. Or maybe im just an anti social sore loser self pitying bimbo.

Celynn's with a few people we met. Then again, she met. So they started talking. And as usual, people think she's like 21 and me, 15/16. I feel like a fucking child. So under aged. Well anyway, they hit on her. Im not like jealous or anything, but i feel so so so extra. So she wanted to gamble and go for a drink. Being me, the whole time, i was just keeping quiet. What can one say? People ask why. Isnt the answer obvious enough sweetheart? You arent making the conversation with me. So duh, of course i'll stay quiet. You're like 20? I would think you'd have the brains to know that. But i guess some people just dont. Ok im being mean. So, i did not tag along, and i can imagine what they think of me now. But what better can i do than to retreat? LOL.

In times like this, i have no idea what's wrong with me. On another note, she isnt back yet, and im starting to be quite worried. Maybe i shouldnt just left her there. But she insisted on going anyway. And i cant just like go. I have feelings too. And this has happened way too many times in my life. Heh, i dont hate her, neither am i jealous. She's my bestfriend for god's sake. :') Im just wondering why am i not good enough?

SO, GUYS, STILL. HAPPY NEW YEAR. I HOPE YOU'RE ALL HAPPY. AND HAVING A GREAT TIME. TIL THEN! XX